Merry Late Christmas

Hey bloggers/readers

I know it might be abit late now to wish all of you a happy merry christmas and new year. Well its still early for new year and i just felt like i need to share a little bit of everything.

My finals is coming this 31Dec and i am like ARGHHH but anyway i just want to share that this year's Christmas is a whole lot different. For the first time in my life i spent my christmas without my family members. As sad as it sounds it was still an awesome Christmas because church friends were really awesome when they welcome me to their homes and bought me presents.

On Christmas day i went out with my malay friend, kak Tasya who celebrated it with me and we talk all night over a bowl of sweet sweets. 

Yesterday i had my proper christmas dinner with Visha and we had TGIF and Morganfields at the same day. A little cocktail and good food. I feel alot like home. 

I had a great time and i couldnt ask for a better one. Thank you daddy God for blessing me with all these people and i cheerished every moment of it. 

Lesson learnt that at every moment you are awake, seized it and be ever grateful for what comes will not always stay but what come must be made the best for. 

Merry chirstmas lovelies. And HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS

xoxox

Amberstories

Church Family

Church. Mary Voon

Sweets for Christmas Night

TGIF with Visha

Too many Cocktails for the night in Morganfields

What The Heart Felt

I dont know why you keep coming up on my mind. I really dont need this. What i need is to focus myself on so many other things. But somehow every time i pray about it, God just keep pushing, letting the little things around me to remind me of you. Your name keep popping up, the things you do are played right in front of my eyes.

I dont know what it means but i know one thing that, maybe you are made to be mine but just not now but maybe even not ever. Maybe i think you are but you have never. People say people change, you definitely have. The past 9 months seems to change who you are, the one i have known earlier. I guess you have become a man.

I guess all i can do for now is to never give up on you, be the girl at the side line, smile and hope that you are happy always. Pray that you'll always be safe. I promise to be the girl who would fix your bow tie/tie, the girl who panics when you cut or bleed and offers you a band aid, the girl who would carry your back pack when you go shopping, the girl who would walk and shop with you, the girl who would share her food and drinks with you even if you dont want it, the girl who would laugh at your sarcastic jokes, the girl who would keep quite and smile even if you merely joke/tease her in front of public and i will always be the girl who would spend every moment she have just so you wont be alone. Always be the girl that you'd last picked. :')

I'll always be praying for you and someday i hope you'll remember me the least as your friend. The girl who you could count on any time you need.

From the start to the end i wish you all the happiness and i hope that if you have found your girl, that she will always make you a better man. Because YOU deserve someone better. Someone better than me.

Pictures of us are the perfect memory for me right now. I could just wish you would read this but if you ever read this someday somehow somewhere i hope you know its for you and i hope i'd still be around to say to you personally that this is for you.

You will always be my SUPERMAN. ALWAYS.

xxxx

Its November

So hey bloggers,

Its night here in Penang, but some thoughts run through my head and yes i'd like to point out that, people say Uni life changes who you are. But for me as for now its more like discovering what my potentials are and who i really want to be.

In the process i realize that i really love singing and as weird as it sounds i enjoy doing presentations :) other wise i fell in love all over again with my swim team training programme in USM and as for physical and fashion wise i actually got my hair highlighted red and i loooove loooove looove baggy 'Aladdin' pants. 

Someone once told me in class that i dont belong and i dont look like i deserve to be in my course or my minor course, but you know what, hey i am just special. I might not look like one but brains are as equal importance :) besides i really do like arts and performance! 

USM have given me so many chances in alot of things like Rangoli Fest and emcee for indonesian night and upcoming international gala night :) big stuff and i am so glad to be part of it.

Friendship wise i guess that i found soo MANY AMAZING FRIENDS who accepts me as who i am and it's great! Wouldnt have done it without you guys! ConvEx PNK family, Visha, Swim Team, Adikarma, International Buddies and Indonesian friends. Course mates and all :) 

As for above all i rest my case that i would have not done it without God. People say i'd go astray if i dont go to church, i say i have Him in my heart and thats all that matters. He will always be there. I am ever thankful! Thank you Daddy God :)

P/s if you read my blog, the mysterious guy is coming back. Hope to see you if you are reading this (: 

All and all i still miss my besties and have a great night!

Remember its a journey, as you go along do what you love :) 

xoxo Amberstories 

The Red Hairs

Rangoli Fest

Kolam making

The crazy pnk family

They say i am an art student but i am not. But i like art. I do this often

Assignments, cultural night and family

Hey pretty and awesome readers,

I just feel like updating a little about whats up with my life. Its like you know when you just feel like getting things out of your mind. 

Sooo, yeah lets start up with assignments. They are pilling up like literally up. Got one started and the other come. Need to get my head on it now. But guess what i still do my swimming dancing and even online. Feeling guilty about it but i PROMISE to start. Ohhh and i think i MUST START PRAYING MORE OFTEN NOOW. 

As of recently, i got involve with the Indonesian Student Society here in USM and its sooo much fuun having to be part of it. I was the floor mc and even my close senior was the mc. I was the MUA that night and i was very happy to be able to make people look pretty! Thank you soo much to Dian my indonesian friend and Gideon also from indonesia not forgetting Bariqi. I am sooo blessed. They are all sooo friendly and beautiful people. Just amazing. 

And my never failing ConvEx family. For always always sticking around. I really couldnt ask for more than this. :) 

Life definitely has been good soo far with few ups and downs but i am trying not to be to contented. I waNt to see the world more than it is. Learn more. Be a part of something and change for the better. 

Thank you Father! Your plans i will endeavour and i shall praise you even in the storm :) 

Xoxo 

AMBERSTORIES

Marc Joel Bansh and 20th Birthday

I was planning to blog about my birthday this year but i am certain that this is more important than anything else.

To my first big brother, to the first boy i fought with, to the first boy my sister had a crush on and to the boy who saw me grew up. 

Word could not express how i feel now, but tears flow. It naturally comes. I am so sorry, sorry for not keepig in touch. Sorry for being unable to say sorry to you in life again. I wish we could talk like we use to before and i thank you soo much for taking care of me when i was small. Those memories remain as the fondest of all in my life. You'll always be a part of my heart but God loves you more Marc Joel Bansh. We love you too. :') RIP

As for my birthday, i got pranked that a friend were to died but it was all a prank. They bought me birthday cake and gifts. I couldnt as for more. It was a great 20th birthday. THANK YOU GUYS.

I am sorry i couldnt help myself to write more about it but my heart sets out for my childhood brother Marc. 

But i am pretty sure my pictures will explain it all. 

Lastly, appreciate those around you even if it was just aqquintances. They meant the world. 

xoxo

Amber 

September gone, new october begin

Morning internet world, faithful readers or maybe even first time readers!

Here are some summary about what has happened or what is currently happening in my life. 

     • I am in a university. Communication, minor psychology student

     • Got involve with our uni art group called Adikarma, got involve with the swimming team, ExpoConvocation, scuba diving club, Catholic Undergraduate Society and thats about it i guess. Ohhh wait and busking *for the first time* Would love to do it again! This time maybe with a girl partner. Lets just say people talk if its a guy. Hmmmmm 

    •  Met alot of friends. Different style, background, attitude but nonetheless are all really nice and warm at heart. 

    •  Since i've only got these few minutes to spare, i have to say that i miss my two really amazing best friends and i have been eating alot lately. 

   • As in conclusion, i wish you all the best and pray that october would be as awesome as every other month this year. Thank you Daddy God for all the blessings and I love You. Your grace is enough for me. 

xxx

AMBERSTORIES

 

Here's to August rush and July lullaby

Hey my bloggers and readers,

Its August and in less than two weeks i am heading off for university. Sitting here alone and thinking, i actually realize how far God has brought me in life. 

From the time when i had mum and dad aroud, to the time when i lost all that i thought i had then to moving into a new place and having to learn about friendship. Up until today i couldnt have thanked Him enough. 

I remember talking and crying in the car with my best friend, sounding all so selfish and ugly, its the fact that she understood what i felt and the fact that i am growing older makes me feel so grateful today. 

What if, i mean what if one day i am gone from this world? Or on the hospital bed waiting for my time to come? Would i be able to say that i have lived my life to the fullest or would i say i have been lying all my life. 

I want to be able to smile and know that i gave my best. I have enjoyed the time given. Uni preperation is on going. So much to do and time is running out faster each day. 

God, you never failed to put me to places i've never been, let me meet people i've never met and they meant the world to me now. I am very excited yet scared to head off to Uni. To start all over again and to build new friedship.

Yet i know today that, You always give. Give everyone a chance to start a new and hope with Your grace and mercy to endure life as it is. 

I couldnt have asked for more. Thank you God! I love you! 

I love you Andrea & Beverly

xxx

Amberstories 

Just Need To Let It Out

I may not be the best writer and i may not use the perfect english sentences but what i do know, it makes me feel better everytime i write. Or in other words type. 

I miss my dad. Yes i have. Always. but just that recently he has been on my mind lately. Call it PMS but i have to let it out. 

Its like realizing the only man in my life is gone and not being able to listen too what he have to say is weird. He never got the chance to see me drive, never got a chance to see me with my awards, never get the chance to watch all the movies and never get the chance to see me grow. 

I miss that i dont get the chance to see him grow old, never get the chance to take care of him till the day he passed. Never being able to be the best daughter for him. 

I know i have to move on. I have. But at this moment everything reminds me of him. I miss you papa. Life is so much different without you in it. Now as i look back. 

Papa, YOU ARE THE BEST THING IN MY LIFE. 

xoxox

What 2013 holds

Hey bloggers, readers or you who strangely end up reading this, how's life treating you?

As for me the answer is, Yes 2013 has been so far good to me. I made so many friends, so many different people and such different environment. To learn and know that working is actually not easy and tiring.

Yet i had so much fun in all those fcuked up days when clients complain and bosses telling me off and me making silly mistakes. I guess the word is i LEARNED.

I meet so many cool and supportive seniors/friends. So much in comman yet so different in our own ways. I seem to grow, to learn to love them more each day. They are teaching me something new every single day.

As for now, i really THANK YOU GOD. For EVERYTHING. I couldnt ask for a much more better place, colleague and friends than this. Thank you!

And as for you faithful readers, I pray all the happiness for you. May 2013 keep rolling good for all of us. Here a little photos of whom i meet these past 2 months :)

As time goes by

Jan 7 2013,

Life as it seems goes on like the usual. Was having my weekly break from work and fortunately its the day my dad was born 53 years ago. I have so much in mind when i woke up today.

When to the bank to settle some thing and then went shopping and hanging out my friends. Nothing really struck me like the usual every time this day comes. I didn't cry, i wasn't sad neither was i melancholic. I then thought i moved on. But i guess i didn't.

Half way through karaoke ~ing with my besties the song Butterfly fly away was on and i thought i could sing it like i did. But the only words that came out of my mouth was HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA. and i cried trough out the whole song.

There and then i realize how much i miss papa and how i wish i could do all th things i was meant to do. My boss said to me today that i look like m dad. He said like father like daughter. But i guess i failed in so many ways to be like him. I know nobody's perfect but then i know he love me anyway.

Dear faithful readers, or if you just came across this blog, i hope you find the time to look at you dad in his eyes and try to see the things he did through his eyes. He love you in every way that you think is not possible. Before its to late that you never be able to see trough his eyes again.


Happy birthday papa. I love you always. Forever. May the good Lord bless your soul.

Sing along to his amazing song :)

I LOVE YOU.

xxxx
AMBERSTORIES