BRUNEI DARUSSALAM

Hey hey bloggers,

room number?

Yep BRUNEI DARUSSALAM! Been to this lovely country recently for a International school exchange program for three days. To be honest i wasn't really excited for this trip AT ALL. Upon arriving , i wasn't even interested about the places around me. Home sick i guess that's what they say.

Back to the story, we were headed from Muara to a   beautiful school called Maktab Duli Pengiran Muda Al-Muhtadee Billah (MDPMAMBT). Its a huge school with the amount of 1000+ students ad 100+ teachers. They are all really nice and friendly people. First impression they say is the most important. I totally agree with that because i liked the school instantly. We were also join with students from Singapore (Millenia Institute of Singapore). Singapore students are fairly nice people and very pretty too :)

Singapore buddies

The Mall

Farah(Singapore) and I.

Istana

Upon arriving we were served with delicious food and were given our own respective rooms. :) 3 person in a  room. Which is fairly good for me because we get to pick who we would want to share it with. Soon after, MDPMAMBT head student council teacher, Pn.Faridah brought us out to the University Brunei Darussalam. The campus was huge and we were privilege enough to be able to visit the university's library. Which i find it highly interesting. At night we got to go around Bandar Seri Begawan, pasar malam, Istana and Jerudong Park.

At UBD library

Yesterday, we spent almost all day at MDPMAMBT for Bahasa Melayu week and touring around the campus. Later in the evening we got to go shopping in The Mall opposite MDPMAMBT campus. Walking distance. ;) I bought tee-shirts and engraving medals for friends and family. At night, we have cultural exchange performances between Brunei-Malaysia-Singapore. It was a blast. I got to make new friends and even meet some old Brunei friends and it was hard to say goodbye. We then plan to sleep late because we sneak to the common room to play the 'concentration game' aka Truth or Dare ;P. I miss them all already.

Today, we got one last chance to eat at MDPMAMBT dining hall with all the students and then head off to Muara, the Jetty and off on board the ferry back to Labuan. This whole trip basically made me feel so welcome and i had a lot of fun. People with different back grounds and culture but we all speak one language, i am suppose to say it BM but that would be a lie. We all speak ENGLISH :) and tinnie bittie BM. One thing for sure, Brunei looove their food. :) yummy rendang, nasi lemak, chicken curry, sweet and sour fish and yummy.

Muaz, Mark,me and Quini

Thank you God basically for everything and for the school for giving us this opportunity of a life time. :) On thing for sure, a good day is how you make it. As a saying goes, A small SMILE make a BIG difference. Happy Holidays people.
xxxx
AMBER

These Few Months

Hey people, its been awhile now. Today, i just feel like sharing something and to keep you updated about me. 

• These past few months i realized and learned a lot about life. How people can change because of their surroundings and how someone with so much challenges in their life can still stand tall in the midst of everything.
• These few months i realize who to trust and who to no trust. 
• These few months i learn to let go and forgive. 
• These few months i learn to seek for forgiveness. 
• These few months i learn to laugh, to work hard and to play
• These few moths i found myself bit by bit
• These few months i had great memories and even bad ones
• These few months i learn to pick myself up and admit i am strong
• These few months i gain great friends(RINA BTE ARMAN)

With these few months i THANK YOU GOD for always being there, for everything that happened in my life. For molding me in being someone i am suppose to be in near future.

Lesson learnt; Trust your heart and seek His guidance

Food for taught: 'Backstabbers=When they stop talking to you, they start talking about you.' Agree to disagree? or Disagree to agree? Your job to ponder.

MISSYOUANDREAANDBEVERLY
*ps my bestfriend is officially on the radio with her song HoneyDew!*

xoxox
AMBER (: 

God Precious Gift

              My first blog in November 2011. Its midnight and yes i cant sleep because i had my afternoon nap so instead of keep clicking the "HOME" button on Facebook i decide to write a blog. (:  You know, when in my previous BLOGS i actually said how much people DISLIKE me in SCHOOL and how i couldn't fit in with other people, well the problem is SOLVED. All i can say is that words spread because of PEOPLE'S MOUTH. Things that are true but NOT ENTIRELY true. Well it is all cleared up now and EVERYONE admit their wrongs and we all in this together again. What I'd really like to emphasize here is that , when we talked or decide to talk about someone in near future, we should make sure we are clear of what we are talking about. Just don't go saying stuff that you are not sure about. Don't ever make another person hates another because its of no use. Really. You are just hurting someone else and even if it makes you feel better at the end of the day when you look in the mirror YOU HAVE NOTHING TO BE PROUD OR HAPPY OF. Conclusion is: "If you never like being treated that way than don't do it onto others".
           
              In the midst of this heart-aching days that i have been through i can PROUDLY type this down that God never leaves us alone. Just when i thought it wasn't fair that i have to go through all this alone, God sent me Angels around me telling me what to do, what to say and how to react. Its hard to SAY it out or CONFESS it but I did and i am happy i did it. It got me thinking why. Why is God putting me through all these? Is He really getting me ready for the real world in near future? Why do i have to go through this at this age? As i paced back and looked at other people's life that I've seen and been through with, they all faced greater challenge than i ever did. People might tell me i lost my parent and got back-stabbed by friends and that's tough but what they don't see is what i saw. As i looked through pictures of me and my best friend in the midst of tears and anger, God sort of told me inside my heart that they've been through more than i could bring myself to imagine being in their shoes. What I've been through might be a great fraction in my life. But what they've been through might just be a big fraction in their life too. Something they'll never forget. Just like me. That is what makes us so special. That is what makes us BEST FRIENDS.
           We are not PERFECT but we try hard to be one. In the end, its our scars that makes our relationship stronger. Its our scars that made us who and what we are up until today. Everyone has scars in their life and it is through these scars that we learn what its meant to live life. Life is all about having wounds and learning to heal them. Even though there are scars and its ugly, at least we could held our heads high and  proudly say "I'VE BEEN THROUGH LIFE". As a human, life ain't perfect and never will be. God doesn't always give us perfect life. There are days when its perfect but not always. Why? Because in the midst of the imperfection of our lives is where we truly FIND Him.  God knows the emptiness in our souls and He knows how much its going to hurt us when we fall. When i looked back, i tell you, I fall but NEVER hit the ground because He is there to catch me every time i fall. He stood there when i cried my heart out, He stood there when i say i am tired and couldn't go through this anymore and He still faithfully stood there when i questioned Him why He let BAD THINGS HAPPENED TO ME. He let tough situation to hurt us so much so that it hurts Him to see us getting hurt. He lets things happen so we could know that He is there and that He love us. 
                    
          I am God's precious gift in this world and so are you. Just look inside your heart and find Him or look at the sky/people around you, you'll find Him in the midst. He is always there.

Smile for life is worth living for and love and forgive for that is what makes a living (:

Thank you ANDREA, BEVERLY and aunty JACINTA. Couldnt have done it without you! xxx

Have a little solitary in life. It helps.

xoxoxo
AMBER (:

8th OCTOBER 2011

When i woke up today, i though of all the things You've done. I found myself lying on the bed feeling so over come. You gave Your life away for me, truly my heart sings i m THE LUCKIEST GIRL. How could i ever THANK YOU LORD? For giving me 18 years of living in the world You created for me? There wouldn't be me without You and Your plans. How could i ever thank you Lord? For picking me up every time i fall. Even though you might not be there physically to pick me up, You have always sent someone to help me pick myself up and to tell me that i must be stronger each and everyday.  How could i ever thank you for EVERYTHING?, when i KNOW i will never be able to THANK all the people that did wonders in my life for me?

Today, might seems to be just another ordinary day. But to me today, it made perfect sense. I realize how much i need to appreciate things in life before its too late and HOW MUCH EVERYONE HAS DONE for me! But me?? What have i ever DID for them? A question indeed for me to wonder. As i pace back in time to see my footsteps in life for 18 years, i remember every details since i was six. When i was six, all i wanted was a barbie doll kitchen set and how mama have to give up her $ to buy me one and had a small birthday cake because papa and mama couldn't afford one. There i was all so innocent and grateful not knowing how much they had to sacrifice just for me. I remember my sister kissing my cheek. I thought maybe she feels the same way i did. Then i was seven, all i wanted was barbie dolls and it continued till i was 10. This time though, papa and mama could afford a nice hotel dinner and well Barbies. Then i grew older and all i wanted was cloths well i can say up till now. ;) but  for birthday present, it no longer matter when i turn 16. I remember clearly how everyone wanted a SWEET 16 and all i ask papa was a ticket to KL with him and mama, spent all the week walking around KL. It was a GREAT BIRTHDAY and i wish to go back again to being 16. 17 last year, Lord, You provide me with two great people to bring me about ANDREA WONG and BEVERLY RACHEL. What made me never forget my birthday was the movie Charlie St.Cloud. It  tells me something deep; that life is always WORTH THE LIVING no matter if we did or didn't get a second chance and how i cried watching it and them both automatically reache out for my hands ;) That moment i place them both to a very very SPECIAL place in my heart and mind.

This year however, made me seriously realize serious stuff about life. I didn't have my sister around, my best friend around, no mama and papa either yet somehow i smile because in my mind i saw US together. All of us, mama, papa, angel, andrea and beverly. It might seems like a dream but in my HEART i know for sure that is was real. The thought of it made my day. (: Really.


Its really amazing how we change our minds when we grow older each and every year ;) How we don't feel secure anymore like children does and how we worry to much about life. Today in particular, I know that I've got everything i could ever ask for as presents, I've got MY LOVELY SISTER who loves me more than any other sister could have. BEST FRIEND who stick around with me TILL THE VERY END and FAMILY who will be there when i call for them and that is what i call the PERFECT GIFT that only God could give.

So look at the moon, put your thumb towards the moon, close an eye and the moon is never bigger than your thumb ;)
Smile and that's all its worth in living (:

Love; Amber xoxox

CINDERELLA

Hey hey bloggers,

Its been a while :) Have you ever wonder how a heart can feel pain when nothing is actually poking it? but some how we just felt that particular pain cause by hurts? Well literally is hurt some form of pin? If you ever did, then i guess we're much alike. I've always and still ask myself that particular questions sometimes when think of it or when i am facing that situation. As days passed and its been more than 7 months passed, i realized how many decision ahead of me waiting for to be decided. Just like everyone else. The worst part of deciding is know that every decision affect the future upcoming.

Worry, distressed and sadness are part of what it felt like. Deep in thoughts and loads in mind. I sounded all emotional and "EEEWWW" i know! I said these because i realize how much things can change in our lives if we just take the first step in changing ourselves and making our very own decisions. Just like Cinderella, she wasnt born to be a "Cinder" until her father decides to marry another and unfortunately was of no good to her. She wasnt born to live without her father. Everything was cause by decision made by her father. BUT yet she kept her heart pure with kindness and compassion . To love and treat others the way she should have been treated. Then again Cinderella took one step that changes her life for ever. She WENT to the ball, dance with a prince and FALL IN LOVE. Struggle to be together with her love one and the rest is history. You may now tell me that all this is a FAIRYTALE and they don't exists neither would it come true, but there is NOTHING wrong in DREAMING and BELIEVING. Its only wrong when you failed to believe. In life, we are alot like Cinderella. We love when we fall in love, sometimes we even work harder just to get what we love, we struggle to be with the ones we love, we learn to let go of what we love and in the end (we might not see it now, sooner or later we would) we are loved in return when least expects it.

Through it all, stay strong for love and don't failed to love. Making the right decisions is when you made it with love. EVEN if its hard. Because without struggles they'll never be understandings and when there's no understandings they'll never be L-O-V-E and when you Love Others, its Vanishes all Evil (:

Have a LITTLE solitary with smile.
Love and be love
Make you decisions today with love and for love


MISS & LOVE MY PAPPA AND MAMMA
MISS & LOVE YOU MY BESTIES
LOVE YOU ALL BLOGGERS OUT THERE

Love:
AMBER :)

ANSWERS

Its just a wonder how much one could think when they want to. Lately thinking has been on my mind. I thought loads about everything. If this is meant to be. If i was meant to stay in form 6. If it is so, how come i don't see my future with it? I hate it when i started thinking this way. I should be grateful for what is laid in front of me now. I have great family who supports me in whatever i want to. I have great friends in school even when i don't really know whats on their mind because i don't really know them. What more can i ask for? To be honest if i had the chance to, my question would be "This is it? Why? How?" But somehow i know deep in me that i am the only one who can answer all of it. Why am i not even trying to answer it myself? Why do i keep on pushing things away? Why do i just kept thinking but never really do anything about it?

After a long time of thinking, i realized one thing i MISSED the most in life these past few months is to talk about how i felt. What i think. Or maybe to express what i feel. That is isn't a crime to HAVE A BAD DAY. And for people to UNDERSTAND that it is okay to FEEL that way. It sometimes got me thinking to, why do people around me get to do so and i don't? Why cant they not give me the same understanding and encouragement like i gave them? I know i SOUND selfish and all but hey i am a human too. I've got feelings. They got feelings and i never treated them like its a crime to feel that way. Isn't if fair to do just ONCE the same for me?

But then again I KNOW that AT THE END, NO ONES PERFECT AND I WILL ACCEPT THEM AS WHO THEY ARE NO MATTER WHAT. And the fact that I AM NOT PERFECT EITHER. Lesson learnt today is to be PATIENT and ACCEPT ANYONE and EVERYONE as WHO THEY ARE.
p/s:cant wait for holidays! I am coming back home! :D

LOOVE AND MISS YOU BOTH ANDREAWONG & BEVERYRACHEL

A little solitary for today and a whole new chapter for tomorrow :)
xoxoxoo
AMBER(:

Stay Beautiful

School. Is the word for this blog(: As much as i previously said how awkward school was.. Well it still is. But the difference is that now i have friends. Helpful, annoying, cute, pretty, funny, honest, helpful, talkative and all sorts of friends, they have a different heart, thoughts, voice & size, but they all live in a small place called Labuan. :) Its great to know how people here can be soo different from places i've lived and been. Lets talk a little about school and subjects. Well, I am currently taking Economics, History, Business, General Studies, Malay & MUET. Economics can be hard at times especially Microeconomics. But its because our teacher uses his book a 1998 publisher and we are using 2010. So in advance we don't really understand what he's teaching but after all its easy if you read and understand and assignments done :) History is the most tiring among all. Assignment given in every single class!! :O My hand and fingers ache just to finish the assignment given. Business can be fun IF and only if teacher is in a good mood (: She's after all very nice towards us (: General studies well for me by far the best! I've got to learn allot in general studies and its such a great subject because it made me realize the important of general studies (: Getting to know my countries and all things general :D Malay is okaaay. but i somehow still wish if only there was Literature :(. Overall studies are treating me well.

Yeap so this is how i look like every morning

Generally, i've been selected as a school prefect and its quite interesting how prefects are chosen. :D hah well i guess that's my luck!
Having good time here with studies, life and friends but well deep inside i miss KK. I miss my Andrea & Beverly. (: I cant wait to see them as soon as i can! <3 u both!! And to my current close friends Fasyah & Vivi, THANKS for everything :) Stay close!

To both Andrea & Bev, Take good care of yourselves and I LOVE YOU! <3