I HAD FUN

Dear blog,
I am finally in England now.. Its been 4 days too.. God i had soo much to tell.. Well first was, my flight was actually delay.. It was suppose to land at Stansted Airport.. But due to the heavy snow, we were directed to Birmingham Airport wich is far north of stansted.. It took another 30 minutes.. Not only that, our luggage was delayed again for an hour.. I was practically awake for 46 hours straight.. Got a coach to stansted and went home..


The next day was fun though.. Watch movies with my cousin and played games.. We went out on monday. To town, Peterborough and went bowling.. I am soo sorry i couldnt put up pictures because GOSH DAMN I FORGOT MY CAMERA CABLE!
But no worries next time, i go out, i'll use my handphone as camera :)

It snowed today, and i did have some fun with it, My aunt is going to cook us noodle for today!! yippie!! :)

And  maybe i might not come back because my aunt and uncle actually had plans on adopting me.. soo its all up to me to decide.. i dont know.. :( :) but i am glad though that someone actually wants me :)

Will update more soon :)

Love from Sawtry, UK.
Amber
ps: its 5.34pm

Two More Days

Dear Blog,

My heart ache today, because i realise that i actually have less than 2 days before leaving for London :( and that is sad because i really will miss Malaysia, My school and most importantly MY FRIENDS.  I know i sounded all soo ungrateful because everyone that know i am leaving says "Hey you are going to London. If i were you i'd love it".

SERIOUSLY.. If you are in my shoes, you'd feel the way i do too. I wont be seeing all the sunshines, the pool and the fun. Yes its a new experience but i am quite content with just hanging out with my friends the whole year.. But LONDON, seems like a new place to start a new and feel new.. Somehow to create a new me. I know in my heart, LONDON HERE I COME..

Maybe i am just exaggeration much.. Somehow i seriously feel like i will never want to let go.. I remember talking to Leonnie about what i really felt in my heart.. And i told her that the ONE thing i will never let go and that i am afraid to let go is forgetting papa when i start a new.. I dont want to forget pappa and all the memories we had together.. papa is in my heart but if i start a new by means i will open my heart to others and eventually forget about him

I can never forget him and I WILL NEVER FORGET HIM! Malaysia, Sabah is where i will always remember papa..Because he is my PAPA and always will be!
Papa, this i promise you, that when i am in London, I will make sure that i will NEVER forget you!
Papa I love you!

For The Last Time

Today was sad.. real sad.. My sister broke the news i cant be going to curtin for studies.. which means i'll be apart from my besties.. and i REALLY HATE IT!! I thought i had the chance too but i dont! So this might be the last i'll see her again.. :(



I am sure this feeling will never fade.. After all i've been through with them.. I need them surely in my heart.. what ever the circumstances are i will never forget them.. They were there in the midst of everything i've been through... I miss them.. deeply..

When i look back... I know they'll be in my heart just like both my parents.. I love you Beverly.. I love you Andrea

A little story to share

Dear blog,
today i came across this really meaningful story from my friend who was heart broken by her ex.

TITLE: WHAT HAPPENED??


Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out. Ya’ Dig?

So guys and girls out there. I think its time to learn to listen and understand..
Have a blissful day! :)

Shopaholic

So SERIOUSLY, i think today i just shop till my legs sore... And i watch a great movie.. it's called The Chronicles of Narnia.. Do you know that the book n movie is based on the bible..? Its ok if you dont. Because i just knew it too..

I cried on the last part of the movie because..
Azlan the Lion represents Jesus..
and he said this to Lucy "My Dear, u are a big girl now. In your world you will get to know me better than you know me in Narnia.. For i will always be watching over you." :')
It felt like God is telling me that He will always be there for me. N watching over me..
I realize, When i was a child i belive in God. Never doubt him at any times.
But as i, grow older I live my own world.Full of challenges and temptation..
And through all this is where i will learn and experience Him more. Because He love me.. He will always LOVE me..

 

Azlan will always be my hero <3

Narnia made my day!
:)

Awesome Day

Hello hello!!!!

Today i had fun!! went out with my friends before i leave soon.. it was sad :( cos i won't be able to see them again anytime soon.. I will miss them.. I love them.. But i cant seems to upload their pictures here :( They are; Brandon, Malcolm, Deana, Kim, Andrew.. I had to type that out.. So i could remember them everytime i read this blog.. I love them.. I really do.. :)

This rainbow is for them.. :)) <3

My High school years ended

Soo today i sat and finish up my last paper biology.. it marks the end of my high school years.. Its sad but i am happy tough because i m finally free.. and Uni is waiting for me.. but i will definitely miss all those memories. other than that i am nervous & excited for my upcoming trip to London for 3 months!
hmmm

wait for more pictures soon :))