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Its just a wonder how much one could think when they want to. Lately thinking has been on my mind. I thought loads about everything. If this is meant to be. If i was meant to stay in form 6. If it is so, how come i don't see my future with it? I hate it when i started thinking this way. I should be grateful for what is laid in front of me now. I have great family who supports me in whatever i want to. I have great friends in school even when i don't really know whats on their mind because i don't really know them. What more can i ask for? To be honest if i had the chance to, my question would be "This is it? Why? How?" But somehow i know deep in me that i am the only one who can answer all of it. Why am i not even trying to answer it myself? Why do i keep on pushing things away? Why do i just kept thinking but never really do anything about it?

After a long time of thinking, i realized one thing i MISSED the most in life these past few months is to talk about how i felt. What i think. Or maybe to express what i feel. That is isn't a crime to HAVE A BAD DAY. And for people to UNDERSTAND that it is okay to FEEL that way. It sometimes got me thinking to, why do people around me get to do so and i don't? Why cant they not give me the same understanding and encouragement like i gave them? I know i SOUND selfish and all but hey i am a human too. I've got feelings. They got feelings and i never treated them like its a crime to feel that way. Isn't if fair to do just ONCE the same for me?

But then again I KNOW that AT THE END, NO ONES PERFECT AND I WILL ACCEPT THEM AS WHO THEY ARE NO MATTER WHAT. And the fact that I AM NOT PERFECT EITHER. Lesson learnt today is to be PATIENT and ACCEPT ANYONE and EVERYONE as WHO THEY ARE.
p/s:cant wait for holidays! I am coming back home! :D

LOOVE AND MISS YOU BOTH ANDREAWONG & BEVERYRACHEL

A little solitary for today and a whole new chapter for tomorrow :)
xoxoxoo
AMBER(:

Stay Beautiful

School. Is the word for this blog(: As much as i previously said how awkward school was.. Well it still is. But the difference is that now i have friends. Helpful, annoying, cute, pretty, funny, honest, helpful, talkative and all sorts of friends, they have a different heart, thoughts, voice & size, but they all live in a small place called Labuan. :) Its great to know how people here can be soo different from places i've lived and been. Lets talk a little about school and subjects. Well, I am currently taking Economics, History, Business, General Studies, Malay & MUET. Economics can be hard at times especially Microeconomics. But its because our teacher uses his book a 1998 publisher and we are using 2010. So in advance we don't really understand what he's teaching but after all its easy if you read and understand and assignments done :) History is the most tiring among all. Assignment given in every single class!! :O My hand and fingers ache just to finish the assignment given. Business can be fun IF and only if teacher is in a good mood (: She's after all very nice towards us (: General studies well for me by far the best! I've got to learn allot in general studies and its such a great subject because it made me realize the important of general studies (: Getting to know my countries and all things general :D Malay is okaaay. but i somehow still wish if only there was Literature :(. Overall studies are treating me well.

Yeap so this is how i look like every morning

Generally, i've been selected as a school prefect and its quite interesting how prefects are chosen. :D hah well i guess that's my luck!
Having good time here with studies, life and friends but well deep inside i miss KK. I miss my Andrea & Beverly. (: I cant wait to see them as soon as i can! <3 u both!! And to my current close friends Fasyah & Vivi, THANKS for everything :) Stay close!

To both Andrea & Bev, Take good care of yourselves and I LOVE YOU! <3