When i woke up today, i though of all the things You've done. I found myself lying on the bed feeling so over come. You gave Your life away for me, truly my heart sings i m THE LUCKIEST GIRL. How could i ever THANK YOU LORD? For giving me 18 years of living in the world You created for me? There wouldn't be me without You and Your plans. How could i ever thank you Lord? For picking me up every time i fall. Even though you might not be there physically to pick me up, You have always sent someone to help me pick myself up and to tell me that i must be stronger each and everyday. How could i ever thank you for EVERYTHING?, when i KNOW i will never be able to THANK all the people that did wonders in my life for me?
Today, might seems to be just another ordinary day. But to me today, it made perfect sense. I realize how much i need to appreciate things in life before its too late and HOW MUCH EVERYONE HAS DONE for me! But me?? What have i ever DID for them? A question indeed for me to wonder. As i pace back in time to see my footsteps in life for 18 years, i remember every details since i was six. When i was six, all i wanted was a barbie doll kitchen set and how mama have to give up her $ to buy me one and had a small birthday cake because papa and mama couldn't afford one. There i was all so innocent and grateful not knowing how much they had to sacrifice just for me. I remember my sister kissing my cheek. I thought maybe she feels the same way i did. Then i was seven, all i wanted was barbie dolls and it continued till i was 10. This time though, papa and mama could afford a nice hotel dinner and well Barbies. Then i grew older and all i wanted was cloths well i can say up till now. ;) but for birthday present, it no longer matter when i turn 16. I remember clearly how everyone wanted a SWEET 16 and all i ask papa was a ticket to KL with him and mama, spent all the week walking around KL. It was a GREAT BIRTHDAY and i wish to go back again to being 16. 17 last year, Lord, You provide me with two great people to bring me about ANDREA WONG and BEVERLY RACHEL. What made me never forget my birthday was the movie Charlie St.Cloud. It tells me something deep; that life is always WORTH THE LIVING no matter if we did or didn't get a second chance and how i cried watching it and them both automatically reache out for my hands ;) That moment i place them both to a very very SPECIAL place in my heart and mind.
This year however, made me seriously realize serious stuff about life. I didn't have my sister around, my best friend around, no mama and papa either yet somehow i smile because in my mind i saw US together. All of us, mama, papa, angel, andrea and beverly. It might seems like a dream but in my HEART i know for sure that is was real. The thought of it made my day. (: Really.
Its really amazing how we change our minds when we grow older each and every year ;) How we don't feel secure anymore like children does and how we worry to much about life. Today in particular, I know that I've got everything i could ever ask for as presents, I've got MY LOVELY SISTER who loves me more than any other sister could have. BEST FRIEND who stick around with me TILL THE VERY END and FAMILY who will be there when i call for them and that is what i call the PERFECT GIFT that only God could give.
So look at the moon, put your thumb towards the moon, close an eye and the moon is never bigger than your thumb ;)
Smile and that's all its worth in living (:
Love; Amber xoxox
Today, might seems to be just another ordinary day. But to me today, it made perfect sense. I realize how much i need to appreciate things in life before its too late and HOW MUCH EVERYONE HAS DONE for me! But me?? What have i ever DID for them? A question indeed for me to wonder. As i pace back in time to see my footsteps in life for 18 years, i remember every details since i was six. When i was six, all i wanted was a barbie doll kitchen set and how mama have to give up her $ to buy me one and had a small birthday cake because papa and mama couldn't afford one. There i was all so innocent and grateful not knowing how much they had to sacrifice just for me. I remember my sister kissing my cheek. I thought maybe she feels the same way i did. Then i was seven, all i wanted was barbie dolls and it continued till i was 10. This time though, papa and mama could afford a nice hotel dinner and well Barbies. Then i grew older and all i wanted was cloths well i can say up till now. ;) but for birthday present, it no longer matter when i turn 16. I remember clearly how everyone wanted a SWEET 16 and all i ask papa was a ticket to KL with him and mama, spent all the week walking around KL. It was a GREAT BIRTHDAY and i wish to go back again to being 16. 17 last year, Lord, You provide me with two great people to bring me about ANDREA WONG and BEVERLY RACHEL. What made me never forget my birthday was the movie Charlie St.Cloud. It tells me something deep; that life is always WORTH THE LIVING no matter if we did or didn't get a second chance and how i cried watching it and them both automatically reache out for my hands ;) That moment i place them both to a very very SPECIAL place in my heart and mind.
Its really amazing how we change our minds when we grow older each and every year ;) How we don't feel secure anymore like children does and how we worry to much about life. Today in particular, I know that I've got everything i could ever ask for as presents, I've got MY LOVELY SISTER who loves me more than any other sister could have. BEST FRIEND who stick around with me TILL THE VERY END and FAMILY who will be there when i call for them and that is what i call the PERFECT GIFT that only God could give.
So look at the moon, put your thumb towards the moon, close an eye and the moon is never bigger than your thumb ;)
Smile and that's all its worth in living (:
Love; Amber xoxox
